! miSs euu...

hello...sorie for not updating yesterdae..was soo tired..n sleepy of coursee...so veri sorie..

todae..well..i dunnoe wad to sae alreadi..everthing jus past soo very fast. well.in skool nothing much realli happen todae.. but after remedial i went out eat with my frenz at long john silver. n at the same time waitng for nadiah's photos..so we went n eat..

den i went back to skool. to attend the nyte study class. i reached there abit late la. but still there was no teacher inside.so i went in to mit nuraini.. i sat in class. doing my things n asking nuraini questions..

den something jus happened. i found out something n jus get pissed off realli..den still trying to calm down, listening to my mp3 as loud enuf... nuraini came baq from caltex n tried to calm me down. but wen i started toking to her, evrything changed. i run to the toilet.i sat at the toilet bowl (closed one la) den guess wad..haha! i saw this girl thingy at the tissue thing..wad de hell!! i start to laugh my heartz out sia. i sat at de other one..den.. me n nuraini..talked n talked n talked..n i did calm myself down.

but..things werent the same later..went baq to class..( the class was damn noisy ) den sat down.. n things jus happened in jus a few moments. i killed myself..n my frenz..killed nuraini n apek. haish..all dat i can do is break down.. went to the toilet alone..no one! i called suzie..talk to her for a few minutes..she calm me down n sae dat evrythng will b fine.. apek called me to get out of the toilet..n i did..n wad i saw..was tears in sumone's eyes. i tried to calm her down.. but i also broke down.. we den went baq home together.. evrything jus changed..

nuraini took de bus home..n me..later.. sat with apek for awhile.. he calm me..he make me smiled..he xplained to me.. he's jus there to sort things out..n ya! datz it..

i want to tell my frenz dat..no matter how hurt i am for who or wad.. itz okeh if im hurt but i wont bare to see others hurt bcoz of it.. let me suffer..not u pple.. let me b the victim..not u pple..okeh.. itz okeh! realli.. for those hu have helped me todae..thanx alot..i love u pple n i dun wan to lose any of my frenz.. im sorie for making things that happened..n i treasure each n evry one of my frenz..please smile..n forgive me.. im scared of losing someone...

okehla pple..datz all..i cant see tears running down from someone hu u realli treasure most.. todae..im realli sorie..n i want things to get better tommorrow..okeh!

take care pple! nytez..MWAAH!!!

fading..drifitng..hey..im still thinking..